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Mar. 15th, 2009 | 08:13 pm
music: book of right-on--joanna newsom
I have this really nasty habit of preparing too much. The word “preparing” isn’t entirely accurate because the word implies activity; I think too much about preparing to do something. I’ve been sitting here for half an hour reading weight loss journals, thinking of how I’m going to make these important life changes. Instead of getting up, going to the store and buying some fruits and veggies, or cleaning the kitchen and doing something productive, I’ve been listening to music and reading and acting like it’s the same thing as actually making changes. I can’t even write this without bullshitting, stopping to go grab some yogurt out of the fridge or download songs. I’m sick of hiding and being inactive and hating every aspect of my life. I’m sick of dreaming my life away.